Not posted anything for a while, it’s not been lack of things to say, but I’ve been struggling to articulate my thoughts of late. When we set up this blog I promised myself I wouldn’t use it just to complain about the things I didn’t have and the things that were going wrong !
In the last few months we’ve had a lot of things go against us, I’ve become more angry and more resentful that I was before, which is quite impressive. So, I chose not to post anything.. the old adage ‘if you haven’t got anything nice to say’.
So why am I posting today, because I have a am feeling positive for the first time in a longtime. It’s our anniversary this weekend, 4 years since I married the woman who saved my life… I know a lot of people make statements like that, but for me, I have to say I believe it. When I met Heidi in 2011, it’s fair to say I was not in a good place.. drinking heavily.. racking up debt, and frankly I wasn’t a very nice person. The only real thing I had going for me at that time was my two furrballs Ollie and Diesel (miss them every day). On our first date it’s fair to say we didn’t 100% click, to be honest, I didn’t think she would want to see me again. But she did, and I am grateful every day for that. Heidi saw past the confident, arragont persona I was putting out there and took the time to see the real me. The place I was in when we met I couldn’t see how I was ever going to be happy, and it took me a long time to really let Heidi in, and even now I am probably still guarded when it comes to some things … but I know I have someone on my life who will always be there for me, and I am so so lucky to have found her.
So, over 6 years together .. 4 of them married we have done a lot. Yes, we’ve had some bad luck, but when I reflect on some of the amazing places we have been, the fact we are in a good financial position when so many people are struggling these days, and we have friends and family who love and support us, I have to say I feel like a very lucky man.
So this post is really to say thankyou to my beautiful wife for always being there for me, accepting me for who I am, but always making me want to be a better person, the kind of person who deserves someone like her.